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[theyamjam]

HES SO PROUD !!!!!!

[mayday-mayday]

lament

[theoreticaltranstherian]

I just love how I

Have little guys in my phone

That I some times lean over and whisper to

and then I go back to whatever

and sometimes they'll

whisper back

[sandpapersnowman]

I think me and my new nerdy coworker are both trying to subtly figure out if the other is into gay shipping bc I mentioned jojo and she one-upped me with yuri on ice but then we started talking about other stuff. but I See You. Girl. Are We On The Same Page. I Think We Are. 👁️v👁️

[damnation-if]

Hi, I just played the demo and I loved it! I was wondering if you could give us an estimate of when the next update is coming?👉👈 (Or link a relevant post, if you already talked about and I just didn't scroll down far enough to see it 😆)

Also, I wanted to check, can you be in a romantic relationship with more than one character, and not just a sexual one? Because I might be in love with every single character in this game 🤭

hi, thank you! i'm glad you're enjoying the game :) i've answered the question about romancing multiple characters a couple of times in a couple of different asks but the posts all kind of link back to each other so you should be able to find all the info by. following the various links in each ask i think, starting here XD

i'm going to put the answer to your other question under a cut because some of it is quite emotional for me

i did Sort Of talk about this at the time when it happened, by which i mean that rather than making a post, i talked about it in the tags of an unrelated post i was using to distract myself (i think it was character playlists and how i'm not sure if it's a good idea to do them or not if i recall), but earlier this year while i was already going through a really rough time, my laptop died and i lost a lot of work on the game.

i knew my laptop was old and that this was possibly approaching so i made regular backups and the good news is that because i write in a separate word document and keep backups of those also i didn't actually lose any Writing. however. my twine has a problem in that every second or third game file that i publish from the build is Haunted - it contains passages i removed weeks ago, or writing that i deleted long before publishing it, that kind of weird annoying shit. (other authors have seen my files do this lmfao) and i just have to hope that the backups i make either won't be needed or aren't haunted. anyway... because hope is futile, the last backup i made was indeed haunted, and utterly useless to me as a recovery file. because it's just twine, i still have all the writing, as i mentioned... but i would have to re-code the entire chapter and put it all back together again because of how much the file did not export, which is a complicated and daunting process.

so i made a rambling explanation of this in the tags of a post and decided to take maybe a couple of days off and cool down from this specific disaster before getting into it.

i wake up the next morning to find the IF community absolutely plastered all over with Helpful Informative PSA posts about how Silly it is not to make backups and how if you just make backups you'll never have problems again and you should know better than to not make backups.

now. i'm not a catastrophist. i know for a fact that nobody was making or spreading these posts out of cruelty or a desire to make me feel bad. i also know that it's not particularly realistic to expect people who don't even know me to hunt down the source of a piece of hearsay that's like "i heard from someone that someone said that an author lost a bunch of their files and is really upset about it" to find out what the situation is and whether or not it's what they imagine. i don't even think the vast majority of people knew who it was that was the author involved, or who i am either.

but to already be going through an extremely stressful time and then lose my laptop on top of that and then be obliquely referenced by people i thought of as my peers as kind of just a big silly bumbling goose who didn't know how to manage my files and a "don't be like this person" attitude really, really hurt me. i can't express just how deeply it hurt me. one particular author was openly laughing at me and saying it was my own fault for being too stupid to make backups using a certain twine peripheral program.

so. there was a period of time where i could have found the motivation to just restart the whole chapter myself and re-code it in a frenzy because i wanted to get right back into writing it because. like a lot of authors, i LOVE writing. that's why i do this even when it's difficult. but that potential recovery was sandblasted away by the reactions of people that i thought of as my colleagues in some sense (even though i understand that they didn't do it with bad intentions, in most cases). and i hope people can understand that it greatly lengthened the amount of time i needed to spend away from the game recovering emotionally, despite being a Very Small issue to most people. i'm literally upset again just typing out this answer lmfao

however one other small piece of good news is that my laptop seemingly just lost the ability to turn itself on (because of its age) so i Think the hard drive is intact. meaning that i think i can get someone to pull all the files off it and just have them back fine once i do. the other piece of bad news is that my life is a trainwreck! and i cannot afford that right now. which is why i sort of pivoted to writing the 2000 follower celebration sidegame as a way to enjoy myself while i hurtle through hell sdjgbdfhfdgh

shortly after this thing with the laptop the house i was living in was sold out from underneath me, even though it wasn't supposed to be, and i had to find somewhere to live with my 18 year old cat, but the city i lived in had zero places that would allow cats (they're totally fine with Dogs though of course) so i had to move to an entirely new city on my own while worrying about her health. and right now i spend every fortnight desperately trying to scrape together enough to survive the next fortnight. there were entire months where i had no access to internet! it's been pretty Bad!!

so i get that people really want updates, and i'm really flattered that people do and it makes me happy that people like the game so much. but i am currently expending so much time and energy trying not to die lmfao, and i need to save up the money to get my files back around that. i truly cannot tell you when the next update will be, but i promise you that it Haunts me, probably more than you can imagine XD the sidegame will Definitely come out before it though, if that's something you're looking forward to.

thank you again for your message, and i'm sorry that i don't have good news for you. but i am trying, constantly. every day.

[stardustedknuckles]

I guess on today's plan is finding a relatively lightweight beanie to wear for the next three weeks. I have to shave most of my head so the surgeon can get the cysts off of it and like make no mistake it's been eight years since I let someone skritch me or touch my head, and I miss it, and I'm glad they're going. But also I do not want to shave my head and the cysts are a large part of it but also. I like my hair. It'll grow back! I know! But ough. Hate this.

And the hairdresser I go to is out until Tuesday so it's gonna be a stranger doing it. Sigh.

[leefi]

just got everything i ever wanted. now what

[neathbound-fiends]

not fl related but lol + also lmao. Almost forgot I have an appointment w the audiologist again tomorrow after work

[v-poreons]

Stressing about what to wear to lightbox tomorrow AUGH....

[planet4546b]

thinks about how much destiny writing has influenced my writing even though were currently seeing other people and starts taking poison damage

[nudelherz]

well at least the terrible fear of being to needy and attention seeking keeps me in check. at least i got that going for me. coolio baboolio.

[fishsticxz-art]

posin’

[fulgurantfirstborn]

{{Gwynfor could be a Scaduland exclusive character if we really want to lean into the whole "Nameless King lost to the Annals of History" bit given the description for Rune of an Unsung Hero, but that would really limit interactions UNLESS he does some quirked up white boi thing to get out of the Scadulands}}

[omegamoo]

grits teeth. making sex jokes does not make me less ace. talking freely and openly about sex without obvious discomfort does not make me less ace. i do not have to justify myself or my identity to anyone!

[lucky-draws]

images .

[berselium]

list of stuff i've made/resized for ffxiv so far if anyone was interested (free with a donation option)! I also take reference sheet commissions, which I would.....greatly appreciate since my credit card bill is gonna be ROUGH this next month aha.........(japanese visa bullshit kept me out of a job for 2 months and i'm at the tail end of recovery almost a year later and this would be the final push to put me completely in the green and let me start saving again for real wheeze)